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I want in on this.... will be an helpful reminder for later when I'm feeling weak.
I won't miss...
Being manipulated
Conversations in which I walk away shaking my head saying what just happened?
Empty liquor bottles all over the basement, in the pantry and anywhere else he decided to leave them
His attempts to control what he did not like about me, my business and my life
His hateful comments about my friends that he didn't like (the ones he knew supported me & want me to get out)
His sarcastic comments about my belief system
Us not speaking for weeks on end after a fight
Him snoring next to me after a long night of drinking, the stumbling around and waking me up. Him sleeping in while I do kid duty in the morning.
Never knowing if he's going to be in a good or bad mood, having to adjust my mood to his. Having to look across the room to my 9 year old & send him a silent msg to watch out.
Being scared that I can't buy food, gas, pay the bills
Being yelled at that I didn't pay a bill and something got canceled. Him yelling louder & getting madder at me when I point out there is NO money to pay said bill
Him starting a fight with me, ripping into me for 45 minutes and then expecting me to say I'm sorry for the wrong I have caused him. And when I refuse to apologize the hell that we live for the next weeks. I eventually always come back and say I'm sorry. Won't miss that AT ALL.
Him getting mad b/c I don't have sex with him enough. Hearing that there must be something wrong with me that I don't walk around all day wanting him. All his ex's wanted to do him all the time, what's my problem?
Him being angry. At me and at everything
Being blamed for everything. Him never taking responsibility.
Feeling crazy.
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