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Originally Posted by Astro  I'm guessing you're talking about when we have a romantic interest in someone else?
In the past I would quickly take on the emotions of jealousy and possessiveness when I was interested in a member of the opposite sex. That made for very difficult relationships and marriages, I was always angry at someone and filled with distrust. I understand that now to mean that I have insecurities and low self-esteem patterns that I need to be aware of and work on.
I found the program of Codependents Anonymous to be extremely helpful when it comes to having healthy relationships with others and healthy behavior patterns. |
Yeah, I know I have issues, and i'm not necessarily talking about romantic relationships, that was just the thing that was on my mind at that particular time (long, stupid story...) I just react "weird" to things sometimes and i'm sure a lot of the other people here have been through something like that as well.
And, yes, I ALWAYS get jealous/possessive of a person even though I know I shouldn't but I feel crappy about it because I know its not right to want to control them. I still can't help being suspicious about every little thing though, it drives me bananas. I just get sad though too, the whole entire experience is full of misery. I just want to crawl under a rock and die, or otherwise harm myself. I don't want to be put through all this bullshit again. I never expect anything good to come out of anything, or for it to even progress far enough to be an official relationship. I dunno, i'll get over this eventually, just musing. :\