[Aysha]

The one and only time I have ever been preg was at the beginning of my addiciton. I was smoking crack everyday all day for the first 2 mos because I didnt know I was preg. When I found out I stopped. But one day my BF brought some home and said he was going to sell it. When he fell asleep I took it all and locked myself in the bathroom and smoked it all. I told him I flushed it cause I didnt want it in the house. A couple months later he accused me of screwing the drugdealer and that I was having the dealers baby and he physically assaulted me and I left and disappeared for 2 days getting high. Which neded in him chasing me at high speeds down the highway in my car. And when I finally pulled off he asked me WTF I was doing with his baby! Now its your kid. Anyway, about a month later I lost the baby. Drs said most women lose their first pregnancy. I to this day do not know if me getting high contributed to that. But I do regret it and hold myself responsible for it. And I still havent forgiven myself.

I have seen lots of girls out in the street totally on it all through their pregnancy. I dont and cant even be around it cause it messes with me really bad.

But no. They are def not alone.