Help! I need a reality check..
This isnt a life or death situation, but I would like some input from others. I know i struggle with co dependant behaviors and interperting words/actions from others so i need help with my latest situation.
I have a friend who has been basically my best friend for 15 years. Yes he's a guy and were not involved like that!! GUY AND GIRLS CAN BE FRIENDS WITHOUT sexual crap.. anyway..
we have both had trouble dating as the ppl we date often feel jeleous of our friendship...
about 3 months ago my friend started dating a new girl., he really likes her and as soon as she met me she started in with all the jealeous crap.. my friend told her I wasnt goin no where so get along or hit the road basically..
I have no problems with her its her insecurities I'm assuming...
ANyway.. we also work the same job so are together everyday.
as soon as he started dating this girl i noticed he being very short with me, even rude.. my co workers noticed it too and asked what was goin on with him. i kept asking if something happened or is it this chic the reason he is being as ASS to me.. he kept saying no.. it has nothing to do with her..
we had been arguing for a few days over dumb stuff.. like he was upset I didnt park my truck perfectly straight in our paking lot..?? crazy stuff.. so we went out to lunch to finally hash this out..
he tells me.. That I dont respect him and that I talk loudly when he is on the phone ON Purpose to disrespect him.. ??? our other 2 co workers i dont do this to.. Im like WTF???
so i reiterated 4 times.. YOU REALLY THING us being best friends for 15 years,, your in my will to take my son should I die,, that I would disrespect you or be rude to YOU on Purpose!!! seriously... he said yes that because were so close I dont feel the need to have respect for him and Ifeel i can treat him like crap..
I was flabbergasted.. and actully crying in the restraunt. I told him that he was my best friend and I cannot believe I would actully treat him like that ON PURPOSE.. I admit I am loud and its a small office but its because I 'm an airhead and not paying attn when somones on the phone...
He said NO,,, I do it to him on purpose and not the others..
It has been about a month and we have not talked., it has caused alot of tension in our little office..
I am REALLY hurt.. I would not hurt anyone ON PURPOSE that I knew for 15 minutes,. let alone for 15 years.. I feel like I have spent so much love and admiration on this person yet this is what he thinks of me!???
I feel robbed.. like i've wasted time on this person.. Like if you were with someone for a year and find out they were cheating on you the whole time. I feel like I've wasted respect I have for him that he obvioulsy dont have for me..
I know I can be dramatic... Its not that I'm mad at him.. i am sad.. I am VERY hurt... and I honestly dont know what to say to him. I feel like i REALLY dont know him if this is what he really thinks of me..
my co workers say were both being dramatic but I am truely hurt and no longer trust him..
AM I BEING DRAMATIC OR DO MY FEELINGS SEEM LEGIT???
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