Yep, I definitely agree with you about the ritual is just as addicting as the actual using of the drug. I was hooked on the thrill of getting the drug (in my case anything opiate) and crushing it into a line and then snorting it. I liked that part alone. And I missed that for a long time. It gave me something to do. So, yeah I do agree with that and I have thought about that before. CONGRATS on getting clean, that is the biggest step! I am proud of you and keep doing the next right thing!