+1 on what Sugah said (as usual
), and on what Ashlee said (I was hooked on the nose ritual, too), and welcome to the boards X.
Have you thought about hitting up some recovery meetings, brother? Now would be an excellent time to start getting involved and interacting w/others who are trying to do the same thing that you are doing ... just my $.02, NA and AA were a big help to me in the early going, that's for sure.