[TheLadyb]

I miss you.
I didn't realize what you were doing for me.
You were my moral barometer.
You were my husband, cause my husband could not be.
You helped me raise my children
You were my mother
because Mom died when I was so young.
You were my best friend
I told you everything.
I miss you every single day.
and when I think about you I get tears in my eyes...like now
and I get a pain in my chest, a real pain, tightening pain
It is the hole left behind.

I have done something you would be ashamed of.
I gave up on life, the life that you hung onto and fought so long for.
I dived into a wine bottle
and stayed there.
I need you again, to help me overcome this.
as I have overcome so many things.
Please be with me as I fight this battle and go into recovery.
I love you, and I miss you everyday.
Thank you for all you did for me.