Hi Dingleberry
I'm really sorry for your loss - prayers to your family.
I think one of the hardest things we have to learn in sobriety is we have to face stuff now.
I've spent a lifetime avoiding the bad times, but I can't do that anymore.
Emotional pain - sorrow - used to terrify me. It was one of the main reasons why I drank. Now I realise that sorrow isn't just about me at all, it's about the loss of people I love....there's a reason for it.
We all need to go through that grieving process for that loss - it's the natural thing to do - it's part of the eventual healing....
and a drink just puts that whole process off, drags us back into our addiction, and stops us being there for the other people who need us.
As I said to someone the other day - its no fitting tribute.
I hope you post again DB - you're not alone here
Welcome
D