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wow,
I guess my problems seem trivial in comparison...
My mom was never around until last year, but she commuted
so I saw her on weekends, but she was more like a distant aunt
What she did do was leave us (siblings and I) alone with our AF day in and day out
I'm still angry at her for "abandoning" us, and still fear she'll get up and leave the family like she threatened to a couple of times.
since recently 5/7 of us in the family are in recovery, in our respective programs
What bugs me is that I still have a chance to make up with my mom,
I'm still young
I opened up to her for one thing that was really bothering me (which was REALLY hard)
but it's so hard talking to her.
I always went to my dad when I had a problem, since he was around, but I'm cutting him off as much as possible when we live in the same house
now whenever my mom tries to talk to me about something serious I clam up, I guess I'm still angry at her for being gone until I was well into my teens
Where am I going with this rant? I dunno
I guess with parents, nothing works out perfectly (sounds simply but it's really hard to get into my head)
Anyway, I hope this might help somebody out there somehow
(at least to gain a different perspective, since your posts gave me a different perspective)
peace out
DM
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