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I like many others came here full of fear. Fear of people! When I could see well enough to read the first step I saw the first word. WE...I though oh no...I am gonna have to get close to someone. And that is what I did....this is when I learned that in step 2... a power greater than myself often was a person place or thing that showed me something about myself that I didnt already know...So at those split seconds those people places and things were powers greater than me. Something put those in place for me to bump into over and over until I learned more...
After a while I learned the first word of the first tradition OUR...I again thought oh no...I got to do something with these people. I had in fact entered into a common welfare...the disease of addiction. Having the same disease caused me to be woven into the same fabric as the others. This enabled me to understand that a Power Greated than me was in fact working through others in recovery.
The people in the rooms put skin on my God which enables me to hear clearly what is being said to me by him in the rooms. If I just dont pick up and keep coming to the rooms I will grow closer to a personal understanding of what a power greater than me is...For me today that is called God.
Often while sitting in the rooms I hear "God" speaking through others. I want to run up to them and grab them by the shoulders and say "do you understand what you just said!!! You just unlocked a door for me that has been closed for years....We never remember what we say that helps others. That is how a power grewater than me speaks.
I know today that I can only hear and find his voice in places that are healthy and good for me. IF I keep coming back and DONT PICK UP...His voice will become clearer and my understanding will become clearer.
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