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Someone said to me in early recovery..."this is not about staying away from drinking..this is about carrying these principles to ALL areas of your life"..
For me trusting in gods plan took time.....meanwhile i continued to run the show in plenty of areas.....fear ruled plenty of my decisions..mostly bad ones.
and then all the things i wish would happen......happened.
wife....job...kids.....bills.......life.....with little old me floating around in it.
can i cope when i cant pay my mortgage?.....
can i cope when teenage kids steal 2k from me...
can i cope when my boss says.....dont go overboard this christmas...
can i cope when my sex life falls to pieces...
for me it seperates then men from the boys.
i can sit at home living off the state and be recovering for ever..
or i can get up grab life by the throat.....working the principles i needed to work in all areas of my life....and live.
i can winge about my life or pick what was freely given to me.
that said..lol...........control and manipulating situations is normally my downfall...as keith calls it...in charge.
even though .from experience i know that situations get better quicker without my input or control...stop tinkering..
apathy is simple for me......believeing my own b.s and doing nothing about it.
i cant do that for too long.......it becomes too uncomfortable.
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