| I need to get over myself and tell you guys
I relapsed. I have gone back in forth how to get real with you guys. I do not want to go into all of the details but tell you it had nothing to do with my Mom being here 2 1/2 weeks.....well, it could have lead to it, however I did make a conscious decision to pick up. It happened on my 20th month anniversary. Then after that I had a bad attitude, screw it and it happened again day before yesterday, since it was past midnight, today is day one for me.
The shame is there, but is lessoning as I got honest and told my sponsor today which for me solidifies my wanting to get clean.
Here is the suckie part....it wasn't EVEN fun at all! Well, actually I guess that is the good part.
Just for today I start again. I work my program to the best of my ability and go forward.
Our NA convention here in Central WI is next weekend. Good timing for me.
For me today is not being secretive.
Thanks for listening and reading.
I am glad I made it back so quickly.
Sheila
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