WOW!
<This is how I feel right now. I have not had a cigarette for 5 DAYS! 5 whole days without a cigarette! YAY for me!! But I feel so terribly sad inside.
I mean this feels worse than getting sober. This feels harder to do than staying clean! Wow.
I want to be mean to everyone around me. I want to yell at everyone.
I have been a smoker for 22 years, so I know I definitely have a strong habit going for me. But I want to quit sooooooo bad, and stay quit!
I refuse to pick up a cigarette no matter what... but when will this terrible jones'n feeling go away even alittle bit?
I feel like my brain is so obsessed to smoke that its all I think about no matter how busy I keep myself.
I am using nicotine patches......
I am not a sleeper... so I can not sleep it away, I am very anxious.
Also I have been subbing with lots of food ( I am skinny, so I can afford the weight)
If anyone has any advise for me to help me to get my thinking off of smoking even just for 5 minutes, please help me!!!!!
I just want to know how or when I will start to feel OK with all this!
Thank you for reading this.
