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poesuicide · 10-03-2009, 09:01 AM

I'm not sure what else to call it. I've had it since I was a kid. I can't control it, and it's ruining my life.

I feel this uncontrollable urge to lash out when I feel threatened in any way. If I don't think someone is being fair to me, I yell. I don't mean necessarily raising my voice, though I sometimes do. I angrily say whatever I feel, whether it's to my boss at work or police officer or whatever. I lose all sense of rationale and just blow up. I don't *usually* physically hit anything. I just say, or type, whatever comes to mind without thinking of the consequences. I'm so mad, I just don't care. I get this horrible FU attitude and I DON'T WANT IT!

I hope someone here can give me some insight. I was an angry kid too. I used to get slapped in the mouth for "talking back" and yelling all the time. I can't help it. It makes me crazy when someone disagrees, criticizes, or yells at me. Note- I wasn't one of those crazy kids who get in trouble and throw tantrums. I just get angry and "talk back". I did then and I still do now at 25.

I have a whole slew of other problems, if that makes any difference, including Agoraphobia/social anxiety. Could this be a side effect of something else or am I just totally messed up? It's very difficult for me to hold a job between social ineptitude and anger.

10-03-2009, 09:01 AM	#1 (permalink)
poesuicide Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Posts: 2	Irrational Anger I'm not sure what else to call it. I've had it since I was a kid. I can't control it, and it's ruining my life. I feel this uncontrollable urge to lash out when I feel threatened in any way. If I don't think someone is being fair to me, I yell. I don't mean necessarily raising my voice, though I sometimes do. I angrily say whatever I feel, whether it's to my boss at work or police officer or whatever. I lose all sense of rationale and just blow up. I don't usually physically hit anything. I just say, or type, whatever comes to mind without thinking of the consequences. I'm so mad, I just don't care. I get this horrible FU attitude and I DON'T WANT IT! I hope someone here can give me some insight. I was an angry kid too. I used to get slapped in the mouth for "talking back" and yelling all the time. I can't help it. It makes me crazy when someone disagrees, criticizes, or yells at me. Note- I wasn't one of those crazy kids who get in trouble and throw tantrums. I just get angry and "talk back". I did then and I still do now at 25. I have a whole slew of other problems, if that makes any difference, including Agoraphobia/social anxiety. Could this be a side effect of something else or am I just totally messed up? It's very difficult for me to hold a job between social ineptitude and anger.