[Rancorous]

I havn't posted regularly in a while so I guess you all are going to get an update whether you want it or not. I recently started attending college again. I had very high hopes.

So far so good as far as grades go, my goals are currently being met in regards to that. Straight Bs so far. I'm taking a few courses I anticipated would be very difficult for me. Bs are nothing to sneeze at, especially when taking that into consideration.

However, I thought I would make some friends, or at the very least, acquaintances. I've been there for nearly six weeks. I havn't found anyone i'm overly enamored with and want to see more of. I also am not inclined to waltz up to people and start chattering inanely either. I tend to let people come to me. This is where i'm a little disappointed, not surprised by this type of thing, just a little disappointed. Disappointed is the only word I can think of to even come close to whatever i'm feeling or not feeling. People are acting exactly like I thought they would. So maybe i'm not disappointed at all. Like I said, i'm not a people person, being alone is not a new thing to me, nor does it really bother me.

It seems some people know who I am from being in class with me. They point me out in conversation with their friends. I can hear what they're saying. They probably don't think I listen in on things or don't think I can hear them from where they're standing. Basically, people think i'm crazy as hell. I don't have a name either i'm just "that girl" I don't respond. I don't care enough to respond.

My previous school was of the Catholic variety. This is the first time people havn't been asking too many questions, trying to get into my business. There hasn't been a large-scale humanitarian movement to get me to take my meds and get me to go to counseling. I've enjoyed that. I kind of like being invisible.

Its getting relatively late, so, none of this probably makes a bit of sense, but oh well, you all can deal. I'm sure someone out there has posted weirder things.