Mike
What do I think?
I think you are fantastic and exactly who I needed to connect with. Even when I was taking the pain meds for pain i felt guilty because it seemed like a double edged sword. I absolutely could not function without them, however i still noted and appreciated the way they relaxed me mentally.
I am doing the things you suggested... praying,, getting out of myself and focusing on another person. I have not lied to the doctor about needed pain meds. i just had a severe bout with TMJ and needed them, but would only take in the evening towards bedtime. ( I have PT and splint therapy. Can't tolerate muslce relaxers). The problem is, i have a very low pain tolerance. Always have even before ever took a drink or drug.
Thanks for being here!
Mary Jo