i am powerless, because of the physical allergy (a craving beyond my mental control).
my life is unmanageable because of the spiritual malady. (irritable restless and discontent), (inside), not my external situation. eg, thats why when i stop and get everything back, my girlfriend, the job, the car, the flat, the money, i still go out and drink again.
1) powerless equals godless.
2) unmanagability, equals internal, NOT external.
try writing a gratitute list instead, 10 things everyday you are grateful for.
eg, hope, freedom, health, sponsor options, god, program, meetings, alive, sober,
and change it everyday !!