"All life is impermanence", were the last words attributed to Shakaymuni, the Buddha, that being the case, for myself when I found myself doing what you do, which is excellent, it often paid to reflect and look back,NEVER STARE, and change my perspective, steadily, quietly and purposfully avoiding my biggest enemy, SELF WILL, once I forget that I am powerless over people, places and institutions I'm heading for serious trouble. Thank you for posting your message, I wish you a long, healthy recovery.
