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Charmie · 09-19-2009, 03:16 AM

i got back to AA at the begining of the year (i went briefly 4 yrs ago,it wasnt to be).after going to lots of meetings and using the phone as was suggested to me i still picked up again after a month.i knew things had to change,i was powerless over alcohol and using the phone and going to meetings was not going to keep me sober.i prayed that i may find a sponsor,at this point i was prayinf for anything and everything and probably getting it wrong half the time,but i was desperate.one day a lady from 50 miles away was visiting my regular thursday lunchtime meeting,they asked her to chair.i identified with her story all the way through,from violence,to rape,to drugs,unwanted pregnancy and she used the word chaos.thats my story i thought.she looked nice,she was confident and she was happy with a sparkle in her eyes.that was in march.i spoke to her and she gave me her number as there was a convention coming up that she and i were both attending in the april.i got home on the sunday and made my descision,i wanted her to be my sponsor.i called her on the monday and she said yes.that was in april.we got to work straight away.she passed on to me what she had been taught straight out of the Big Book.she didnt mince her words.in 7 and a half months my life has changed beyond recognition.i have a connection with God i never thought possible and my whole outlook on life has changed.i went to this usual thurs lunchtime meeting this week,i wasnt going to go,but i did.there was a lady there that has been going a few weeks.it struck me i hadnt given her much of my time.i spoke to her in the break.i had shared just before (its a free for all here,everyone shares ) she asked me if i practise what i preach ($*!"£,,figuretivly speaking of course ) and i said i spoke the truth,and yes i try to in all my affairs.she said but your so happy,i hate myself,did you? i said with a passion.she was confused,lost and bewildered.i gave her my number and she called me the next day.she said she had been thinking about me the night before as she had recognised me,and then it had come to her,,,,she works in ER and she recognised me for 4 yrs ago.this was when i was in and out of hospital every other day,overdoses,i had slashed my arms and legs to ribbons,i had shaved my hair off,i had a stint in the locked phsyc ward.my daughter had gone to live with my sister.she saw all this,she saw me at my absolute rock bottom.i was in the pits of hell at this time in my life.and then she saw me on thurs.she said i was a miracle! she couldnt believe the change,,she asked me how it had happened,i told her she could have it too if she wanted,i could help her if she would like? she said oh yes please.so there it is.my first chance at giving it away to keep it.i thank God from the bottom of my heart for this chance.

09-19-2009, 03:16 AM	#1 (permalink)
Charmie Member Join Date: Jan 2009 Posts: 1,322	sponsorship i got back to AA at the begining of the year (i went briefly 4 yrs ago,it wasnt to be).after going to lots of meetings and using the phone as was suggested to me i still picked up again after a month.i knew things had to change,i was powerless over alcohol and using the phone and going to meetings was not going to keep me sober.i prayed that i may find a sponsor,at this point i was prayinf for anything and everything and probably getting it wrong half the time,but i was desperate.one day a lady from 50 miles away was visiting my regular thursday lunchtime meeting,they asked her to chair.i identified with her story all the way through,from violence,to rape,to drugs,unwanted pregnancy and she used the word chaos.thats my story i thought.she looked nice,she was confident and she was happy with a sparkle in her eyes.that was in march.i spoke to her and she gave me her number as there was a convention coming up that she and i were both attending in the april.i got home on the sunday and made my descision,i wanted her to be my sponsor.i called her on the monday and she said yes.that was in april.we got to work straight away.she passed on to me what she had been taught straight out of the Big Book.she didnt mince her words.in 7 and a half months my life has changed beyond recognition.i have a connection with God i never thought possible and my whole outlook on life has changed.i went to this usual thurs lunchtime meeting this week,i wasnt going to go,but i did.there was a lady there that has been going a few weeks.it struck me i hadnt given her much of my time.i spoke to her in the break.i had shared just before (its a free for all here,everyone shares ) she asked me if i practise what i preach ($*!"£,,figuretivly speaking of course ) and i said i spoke the truth,and yes i try to in all my affairs.she said but your so happy,i hate myself,did you? i said with a passion.she was confused,lost and bewildered.i gave her my number and she called me the next day.she said she had been thinking about me the night before as she had recognised me,and then it had come to her,,,,she works in ER and she recognised me for 4 yrs ago.this was when i was in and out of hospital every other day,overdoses,i had slashed my arms and legs to ribbons,i had shaved my hair off,i had a stint in the locked phsyc ward.my daughter had gone to live with my sister.she saw all this,she saw me at my absolute rock bottom.i was in the pits of hell at this time in my life.and then she saw me on thurs.she said i was a miracle! she couldnt believe the change,,she asked me how it had happened,i told her she could have it too if she wanted,i could help her if she would like? she said oh yes please.so there it is.my first chance at giving it away to keep it.i thank God from the bottom of my heart for this chance.