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ialwaysdo · 09-19-2009, 01:12 AM

Hi everyone, My addiction began alomst 4 years ago when i started taking vicodin. I started taking them while I was selling cars. Going to work was fun as i soon was taking ( 8 to 10 )vicodin ten mil everyday.Sometimes i would get oxys,roxys,percs,ect.This went on for a lilttle over 7months. Then the day came where my dealer/coworker couldn't get me them. That night I got myself arrested for weed .That night I took my last pills. Sunday was fine ,but then monday i called out of work, because my full blown withdrawl was in full swing. July 3rd and July 4th I experienced the worst pain of my life. 48 hours of hell but on July 5th I went to work . I had detoxed. 10 days later when the vics were available to me i bought some, and got hooked. I stayed hooked for 2 years, snorting roxys mostly. I was on 350 - 450 mil a day. I had to go through probation while hooked , and only got through it when a doctor wrote me a script for 30 vics.

I started taking suboxone for just under 50 days, but returned to my love. I stayed high for many more months.I was using subs when i ran out of pain pills.So i flipped flopped alot. The day after my 30th birthday i got serious about taking subs. I believe i started at 8-10 mil. After a couple of months I was using 4 mg's. 4 months in I was at 2-3 mil..September 15th 2009 i took 2 vics i had under the bed this whole time. It didn't get me high, it was a stupid thing to do.

Present day I am so frustrated with subs...My least favorite w/d is the fact that my body is on fire . I get super hot among other w/d. Without my slipup Ive been on subs for almost 5 months...I want out. I hate being dependant on pills. Especially ones that don't get me high. I'm a true misery. All i think about is detoxing , and how sick I will be. I wish i would have just gone off pain pills on a taper..Cold turkey is underated. It was torture, but only 2 days.
I'm stuck at 2mg/3mg.I was positive early on,but the process is too long. Addicts want instant gradification. I know i gotta pay the piper,but I'm just plain scared. I guess thats it..Thanks for listening....

09-19-2009, 01:12 AM	#1 (permalink)
ialwaysdo Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: NJ Posts: 5	my painkiller/suboxone saga Hi everyone, My addiction began alomst 4 years ago when i started taking vicodin. I started taking them while I was selling cars. Going to work was fun as i soon was taking ( 8 to 10 )vicodin ten mil everyday.Sometimes i would get oxys,roxys,percs,ect.This went on for a lilttle over 7months. Then the day came where my dealer/coworker couldn't get me them. That night I got myself arrested for weed .That night I took my last pills. Sunday was fine ,but then monday i called out of work, because my full blown withdrawl was in full swing. July 3rd and July 4th I experienced the worst pain of my life. 48 hours of hell but on July 5th I went to work . I had detoxed. 10 days later when the vics were available to me i bought some, and got hooked. I stayed hooked for 2 years, snorting roxys mostly. I was on 350 - 450 mil a day. I had to go through probation while hooked , and only got through it when a doctor wrote me a script for 30 vics. I started taking suboxone for just under 50 days, but returned to my love. I stayed high for many more months.I was using subs when i ran out of pain pills.So i flipped flopped alot. The day after my 30th birthday i got serious about taking subs. I believe i started at 8-10 mil. After a couple of months I was using 4 mg's. 4 months in I was at 2-3 mil..September 15th 2009 i took 2 vics i had under the bed this whole time. It didn't get me high, it was a stupid thing to do. Present day I am so frustrated with subs...My least favorite w/d is the fact that my body is on fire . I get super hot among other w/d. Without my slipup Ive been on subs for almost 5 months...I want out. I hate being dependant on pills. Especially ones that don't get me high. I'm a true misery. All i think about is detoxing , and how sick I will be. I wish i would have just gone off pain pills on a taper..Cold turkey is underated. It was torture, but only 2 days. I'm stuck at 2mg/3mg.I was positive early on,but the process is too long. Addicts want instant gradification. I know i gotta pay the piper,but I'm just plain scared. I guess thats it..Thanks for listening....