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My experience...
complete defeat......no way.........complete defeat is for losers right?
yeah sure im a vagrant but that because ive hit some hard breaks..
i mean you would drink right?.....if your life was as bad as mine.
jeez drink is the least of my worries.
im a strong bloke........im a truck driver.......jeez i was a champion school boy boxer....no way am i defeated at anything..
keith kindly quoted...."We learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost selves that we were alcoholics."
well i came into aa and i didnt.
i went and changed my drinks.....the days i drank....the place i drank.
the country i lived in.....i changed everything.
and it caught up with me every time.
something happen when i took a drink....it didnt happen to most i watched.
i just couldnt stop......i needed more and more.....most slowed up and went home..
i walked into aa broken.........id exhausted every avenue i could possibly think of......
i was completely powerless to stop....i was defeated.
strangely........it was a relief.........my secret..(or so i thought) was out.
for the first time in my life i held my hands above my head...and it felt good.
When the fog lifted and i proceded with the steps i look back and saw the complete fantasy world i lived in.....it still astounds me today...
i know the truth........im a alcoholic...and im glad to be defeated.
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