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preta · 09-15-2009, 10:03 PM

Meetings felt good, so I went. And I went, and I went and...

I was scared to death
to talk to anyone, so I never got a sponsor.
A year and a half went by and I was still sick and miserable, but sober.
Then I used. Like a robot. I didnt have any choice in the matter, I could watch myself doing it, and I knew what was going to happen, but I did it anyway. Ended up hospitalized within a week. Almost dead...
I came back and got honest, and I asked a guy who I'd known from meetings to be my sponsor. We were able to form a bond of trust. I would never spill some of my secrets to a 'stranger'. Thats ridiculous. My sponsor is the only one on earth who knows some of these things next to myself. I feel confident he wont spill the beans. I worked the steps and i've never been happier or more sane. Life still sucks sometimes, but thats the nature of things.

So if AA is the route you choose, I would advise if you dont get a sponsor sooner than later, that you get a home group, and do some service work for that group. Make friends. Make it known that you dont have a sponsor and your kinda lookin around. Remember that these people need to sponsor others as part of their program. Thats how it works.
I wish you the best in your recovery!

09-15-2009, 10:03 PM	#29 (permalink)
preta Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: rochester ny Posts: 164	my experience Meetings felt good, so I went. And I went, and I went and... I was scared to death to talk to anyone, so I never got a sponsor. A year and a half went by and I was still sick and miserable, but sober. Then I used. Like a robot. I didnt have any choice in the matter, I could watch myself doing it, and I knew what was going to happen, but I did it anyway. Ended up hospitalized within a week. Almost dead... I came back and got honest, and I asked a guy who I'd known from meetings to be my sponsor. We were able to form a bond of trust. I would never spill some of my secrets to a 'stranger'. Thats ridiculous. My sponsor is the only one on earth who knows some of these things next to myself. I feel confident he wont spill the beans. I worked the steps and i've never been happier or more sane. Life still sucks sometimes, but thats the nature of things. So if AA is the route you choose, I would advise if you dont get a sponsor sooner than later, that you get a home group, and do some service work for that group. Make friends. Make it known that you dont have a sponsor and your kinda lookin around. Remember that these people need to sponsor others as part of their program. Thats how it works. I wish you the best in your recovery!