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@URMYEVERYTHING
Yes, in my mind, I mostly doubled the amount he was telling me he was using. However, the more secure he felt in the relationship, the more I noticed his usage drop of both substances. I know this because I used to talk with him daily in the evening and knew he wasn't high. He was also active in his kids sports...he was just too busy. He held down a job during the day and I know he didn't use then. It was obvious when he was high, whereas the alcohol didn't affect him much. The only time he could have used was when he saw his friends for happy hour after work or after the kids went to bed. I sometimes wonder if you are correct though because his emotions were so erratic sometimes and I wondered if this was a sign he was using.
In any event, I always felt like I was in the dark....like he wasn't sharing where he was at with his recovery. He got mostly defensive or at the very least, uncomfortable. I also knew those with addiction lied a lot, so that played on my mind too.
Yes, he did exhibit traits of a personality disorder...I imagine this could be due to damage to brain from years of use and/or a sign of continued use. I just never knew what was going on, I always felt in the dark.
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