[ClayTheScribe]

Well you know what you need to do now. You need to find a GP, NHS or private, and have them refer you to a psychiatrist. The longer you wait, the worse things will get. Make sure you tell them every symptom, every last detail. If you have a genetic disposition to mental illness, have a history of self-harm, suicide attempts and body issues and your doctor is telling you you don't have mental health problems? It's time to see a new doctor right away because regardless of how they can help you with staying off heroin, he's disregarding a patient's cry for help and that is immoral. If you're against finding another doctor, tell your current doctor that you won't be seeing him anymore unless he can refer you to a shrink. Talk therapy can only get you so far. Being depressed and unmedicated is also not very healthy for your infant as he/she needs a mother who's mentally stable and functioning.

You mentioned you're not good at explaining things. Write it down. Write down every symptom you feel is your mental illness, how it affects you, how long, your history with it and then make your doctor read it. If he still denies you a psych referral, drop him or find another doc who can help you.

As far as I know psych meds shouldn't affect your breastfeeding, but a psychiatrist will be able to tell you for sure. The sooner you're on meds, the better you'll feel. Don't wait on this.

Take care