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zoomer · 09-11-2009, 07:36 AM

Thanks everyone! I could not sleep because I kept thinking about my son. I went to visit him,but he only talked for about 2 minutes to rant about how I was a terrible mother and I'm only visting him to make myself look good. I try not to take it personally,but it's hard. I'll keep visiting him until he is out although I cannot go tonight because I work. I just want him to know I'm there for him. Maybe not in the way he wants me to be,but in a way that I can be there.
We use to be close when he was little, then when he was turning 18 he blew up and started saying how horrible I was. I know in my heart I did what i could for him when he was little and we even went bankrupt from all the kids we had trying to give them the things they wanted. I just got some money and I gave him money for a car and money here and there,but his car was a lemon and he did not have a job to fix it. I paid off most his loans so he could go back to school,but he had to pay some,but could not because he could not work due to not getting along with anyone. I have done all I could. He then wanted me to finace him to go to NYC so he could live there, I told him no because I did not want him to be in a dangerous city on the streets. he then wanted to go to California, I said no because he would be too far away for me to help him (he was manic at the time he asked). I told him I would help him to find an apartment here if he got a job so he could pay his rent. My money is going fast and i want to save some for emergencies. Anyway, I hoping that the social worker can find him a place to live and get him of SSD and that my son will get the medical help he needs. My son said he does not want government help because then they will control him. I sure can not afford his hospital bills nor his treatment after he gets out. At anyrate I'm kind of tired cleaning up his messes and going ot the poor house because of it.

09-11-2009, 07:36 AM	#5 (permalink)
zoomer Gold Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: It's raining again! Posts: 2,495	Thanks everyone! I could not sleep because I kept thinking about my son. I went to visit him,but he only talked for about 2 minutes to rant about how I was a terrible mother and I'm only visting him to make myself look good. I try not to take it personally,but it's hard. I'll keep visiting him until he is out although I cannot go tonight because I work. I just want him to know I'm there for him. Maybe not in the way he wants me to be,but in a way that I can be there. We use to be close when he was little, then when he was turning 18 he blew up and started saying how horrible I was. I know in my heart I did what i could for him when he was little and we even went bankrupt from all the kids we had trying to give them the things they wanted. I just got some money and I gave him money for a car and money here and there,but his car was a lemon and he did not have a job to fix it. I paid off most his loans so he could go back to school,but he had to pay some,but could not because he could not work due to not getting along with anyone. I have done all I could. He then wanted me to finace him to go to NYC so he could live there, I told him no because I did not want him to be in a dangerous city on the streets. he then wanted to go to California, I said no because he would be too far away for me to help him (he was manic at the time he asked). I told him I would help him to find an apartment here if he got a job so he could pay his rent. My money is going fast and i want to save some for emergencies. Anyway, I hoping that the social worker can find him a place to live and get him of SSD and that my son will get the medical help he needs. My son said he does not want government help because then they will control him. I sure can not afford his hospital bills nor his treatment after he gets out. At anyrate I'm kind of tired cleaning up his messes and going ot the poor house because of it.