God, how much easier this process would be if I didn't have depression. I wouldn't be racked with disappointment and calling myself a failure for days on end.
It's just easier for me to assume I didn't get the job so I'm not as disappointed. I know that's probably not the right way but it works for me. I'll keep sending clips and resumes out there, I'm even trying out-of-state places because I don't want to be stuck in a job I hate, even if I have to move away from my loved ones. It's gotta happen soon though or I'm gonna feel like a real loser.