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snogs · 09-09-2009, 05:57 PM

I am new to this forum so first of all hello everyone. I have been around for over ten years now and had a great run of sober life. Beleve it or not i never did the steps, as i had a years sobrity before i came into the felloship. I did not have any real horror storys with my drinking, i just got bord with it and wanted to move on. I did a years white knucle sobrity before i discovered my local AA meeting and by that time all my frends had dropped me like a wet blanket for being a tea totaler. So when i went to my first meeting i found it very liberating to find honist friendly people i could identify with. After reading the big book and accepting a few sugestions the PROMISES materialised very quickly for me and my life changed for the better. my insomnia dissapeared, I got a good job, mortgaged a little house for myself and keep't things simple, i simply never felt the need to do the steps.
However, due to the global economic crises, i lost my job in febuary this year and apart from bits and peaces i have found it very difficult to land meaning ful employment since. this of course has had a large impact on my finances and i am having difficulty paying my mortgage. i have shared this with my group but there seems to be a stigma or taboo about financal matters in some AA metting's? I re'read the BB and it mentioned about economic insecuritys and to my understanding is nearly as dangerous as resentments or anger.
Any way, i have never been unemployed for this long ever and it has had a devistating impact on my life. i get very resentful, angry and my sleeping patterns have deteriated so with my back agenst the wall i decided to get a sponser and do the steps. i am on the invetorys at the moment, but when ever i cover any ground a window letter from the bank comes through the door to remind me i am a step closer to loosing my house. i find it increasingly harder to look for work as i can only take so much rejection and sometimes loose all hope of ever finding a job or finding it too late. does god really want me to loose my house?, because i can not see any good come of it. i am not asking any one to pay my mortgage, i am simply asking anyone who reads this if they can identify with me because surly i am not the only AA member to have been hit by the finacial meltdown?
PS, sorry about the bad spelling but i dont have spellcheck.

09-09-2009, 05:57 PM	#1 (permalink)
snogs Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: london uk Posts: 3	AA in the global ression? I am new to this forum so first of all hello everyone. I have been around for over ten years now and had a great run of sober life. Beleve it or not i never did the steps, as i had a years sobrity before i came into the felloship. I did not have any real horror storys with my drinking, i just got bord with it and wanted to move on. I did a years white knucle sobrity before i discovered my local AA meeting and by that time all my frends had dropped me like a wet blanket for being a tea totaler. So when i went to my first meeting i found it very liberating to find honist friendly people i could identify with. After reading the big book and accepting a few sugestions the PROMISES materialised very quickly for me and my life changed for the better. my insomnia dissapeared, I got a good job, mortgaged a little house for myself and keep't things simple, i simply never felt the need to do the steps. However, due to the global economic crises, i lost my job in febuary this year and apart from bits and peaces i have found it very difficult to land meaning ful employment since. this of course has had a large impact on my finances and i am having difficulty paying my mortgage. i have shared this with my group but there seems to be a stigma or taboo about financal matters in some AA metting's? I re'read the BB and it mentioned about economic insecuritys and to my understanding is nearly as dangerous as resentments or anger. Any way, i have never been unemployed for this long ever and it has had a devistating impact on my life. i get very resentful, angry and my sleeping patterns have deteriated so with my back agenst the wall i decided to get a sponser and do the steps. i am on the invetorys at the moment, but when ever i cover any ground a window letter from the bank comes through the door to remind me i am a step closer to loosing my house. i find it increasingly harder to look for work as i can only take so much rejection and sometimes loose all hope of ever finding a job or finding it too late. does god really want me to loose my house?, because i can not see any good come of it. i am not asking any one to pay my mortgage, i am simply asking anyone who reads this if they can identify with me because surly i am not the only AA member to have been hit by the finacial meltdown? PS, sorry about the bad spelling but i dont have spellcheck.