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I have been having some trouble along the lines of you as well. I would suggest first off, if you have serious depression, the worst thing you can do is drink. Alcohol acts as a depressent--it turns minor depression into serious depression and serious depression into suicide. I know it easier said than done, but out of the myriad of drugs to abuse, alcohol is the worst for you if you are depressed.
If depression really is the root cause, and I guess you would know, then therapy is essential to your recovery. For some people, they stop drinking and the depression vanishes, the 12-steps is enough. Others need more but I would argue you need some kind of 12-stepish recovery program. I go to AA and I don't believe in God, they don't force it down your throat, and if they do go to a diff meeting.
Meds is a personal choice. I recently went on some and I think I want to get off them again. But it is worth exploring, as there are many varieties available, and they help some people.
Try to focus on the good: in yourself, in others, in the world. And it helps me to remember that my perspective is, well, f'd. Take a step back, breathe, and enjoy the moment--it's all we have. I wrote this last bit for me as much as you. Good luck.
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