Welcome to Secular OB, I have read your posts in Phals exercise thread so I feel as if I know you a bit
You shouldn't get anyone advising you to see your sponsor here
It's good that you have found tools to help you deal with your problems, but I too have recently realised that even though I am relatively happy in myself and my living situation is stable, I am still drawn to drinking and have a lot of drinking thoughts.
I wonder maybe in my case (and maybe in yours)if its that whilst I have a lot of telephone and internet contact with people I don't have people around me that I can just go and visit and have fun with.
I have always battled with the idea of which came first the depression or the drinking but in my case its got to the point that it doesn't really matter anymore.
Sorry to waffle on I'm not sure what I am trying to say here other than, you are not alone.