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Sf girl, The stuff you point out here is a classic description of the alcoholic mind/personality. These are the things that keep us from sobriety, particularly the thought that we can solve all our problems by ourselves. When I was drinking I was the poster boy for Simon and Garfunkles "I Am A Rock." Sort of the rock of Gibralter of alcoholic thinking. I found that I had built a stone wall around me to keep the world away. Tearing down that wall was a long hard process, but I did it. I'm still working on some of the other issues and probably will be forever. As Kurtrambis said, we're only human.
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God, Please set aside all I think I know about myself, my disease, the Big Book, the 12 Steps, the Program, the people in the fellowship, spiritual terms, and especially about you God so I may have an open mind and a new experience with these things. Amen
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