the funny thing is, 4 days ago i felt good enough that i thought it was totally done, and i actually raised my arms in the air with my fists clenched and
said out loud like a crazy person "you didn't beat me, you can't beat me -
i beat you," and then yesterday, in particular, i was back to saying
"i'm going to beat you, you're not going to beat me" and back in bed and all that kind of thing, with the muscle tremors.
its so weird, i don't understand it, it wasn't a long time that i was using, i should say abusing the oxycodone, and this withdrawal is nothing like what i experienced
with heroin so long ago in my early twenties. it kind of freaks me out and
makes me wonder if i'm nuts, that i'm somehow psychologically doing this
to myself, if that makes any sense, and it would be great to get some info/advice from someone who has experienced this.
its just........ so ........... damn...... long........
thank you again, and blessing and strenght to you all.