| Not sure how to start...
Hi all, not new to SR, but new to this room...No where else to really turn to..
I sat here, and typed what I wanted to say probably...4 different times. It never came out right. Either I said too much..or I felt like no one really cared about what I had to say.
It's been a long time since I've been here...Maybe this is all I can expect from my life. I live everyday..so tired..I can barely make it through the day and all I want to do is sleep in peace. But sleep is never peaceful anymore. I wake up every hour...toss and turn..and get up in the morning feeling worse than before. I don't have the energy to even fake that smile anymore..
I've been down this road before...But I feel there's no more paths to take. Today, I packed up some of my apartment, preparing to move back home after college..And I was overcome with...grief..It almost felt like...by packing up my apartment..I was packing away all my hopes and dreams and plans that I had had with my addict...and it was really goodbye...
What happens when you got to the light at the end of the tunnel...just for the lightbulb to burn out?
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