S
OK I'm not a parent but I recognise that we need to act on problems, cos they don't go away on their own.
Your coping mechanisms scare me S - there's got to be a better way to deal with this than taking Xanax that a friend gave you...thats not a good road to be going down for an alcoholic, or any kind of addict.
If you're that beaten down you need more meds on top of the ones you're prescribed, and you're hiding in the den all day, I think it's time to stop and take stock.
What are you reasonably hoping for with yr relationship with the kids?
Is it achievable?
What do you have to do to make it happen?
Is that achievable?
There are ways out - Cynay's a case in point - but they'll take work and commitment and it may be a long haul til things get better - you can't go on like this though.
Maybe it is time to call their dad in - at least for DK?
CoDA sounds like a great idea - I googled them - they seem pretty active in OH
just don't end up at a Cleveland Ohio Dogs Advocates meeting
D