[cjsg]

HELLO

I´m just kind of poking back in re reading etc...

I continue to be a mental wreck to some extent but I´m almost convinced that its mostly due to the xanax withdrawal made worse by the sub. In addition.. although I had detoxxed off ultram and xanax before I had not experience withdrawal at the astronomical doses I had become accustomed to taking...so It is only logical to assume that they might be more fastidious and more severe this time around .

I, strangely enough DO feel better in a million other respects. I got bumped down 2 mgs in this suboxone and I think the fact I am tapering off has made me ecstatic. Even sitting in a meeting on the sub doesnt bother me quite as much because I AM literally on my way to get off it. I have to be honest...maybe its just a moral issue for us gt but I still agree with you on that spiritual purity, I do feel something in the way still. Others might not feel this so acutely. I can´t help it I still dsense this in my case.. however it is made better by the fact I sliced 2 mgs off the sub dose and that the other things I am doing are starting to bear fruits. you know.. the meetings, the online recovery reading, the forums etc.

I still feel the annoying junk.. the mental wierdness, the inability to sleep more than an hour or so at a time....only god knows which drug is to blame, but I have the sneaking suspiscion the Sub has helped a lot but has been responsable for a lot of the wirdness as well. Whatever the case I am manageing to glean the good from the bad and have felt advances in the last few days..

I hope all is well and everyone is able to muster thier resolve and strength to stay the course
Chris