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Old 08-19-2009, 09:21 AM   #4 (permalink)
unholy_mess
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Ohhh my yes. I have this unexplainable rage that just comes on sometimes (usually when I'm getting manic-y). Some bad days I can cope with...I may cry a little or want to take a nap when I get home to "reset." But sometimes, when everything just seems to go to hell, I'm like whichever of Jekyll and Hyde was the mean one I actually got a bunch of dollar store plates once (just for such an occasion), put them in a pillow case and smashed them to bits on my brick patio. won't lie...it felt REALLY good.

How I TRY to cope...I turn off all the lights, sounds--as much sensory deprivation as possible--lie down and count backwards from 1,000 (or 100 or 500...depends on just how angry I really am), controlling my breaths with each number (in and out for each one...not quickly) and focusing (as best I can) on only the counting. I usually fall asleep. Which is not necessarily a bad thing...
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