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cjsg · 08-18-2009, 10:07 PM

Hello
Yes, last night i had serious sleep issues. I seem to fall asleep on this Sub and wake up with the perception that I have slept for 3 or 4 hours, only to find out its only been an hour and a half.
I thought the same thing about not driving. I have only driven a few times around town since that day but, I think I won´t even risk that until I stabilize or stop taking this.
I have only taken this for a week and last night I was thinking that I might look for a state run detox, or a cheap medical detox. I, just like you with your clients etc, have serious financial hardships at the moment. I ahven´t had to go thru these hardtimes in a long time. I´m not going to go under but at this point, a 700 dollar detox would be break me. I just feel confused... should I hold out and do the 2 month suboxone program my doctor planned or hit the 7 day detox so I can start IOP. Those are my choices. I really really feel the need to be in meetings and an IOP, but when i go to the meetings I feel so strange being on this. I have been going to meetings, reading and praying and it seems I can´t get past a certain point because I feel as if working on sobriety while I am taking this is somewhat of a lie..... in my case anyway. I would not judge anyone who decided to take this or anything. My comments regard my opinion in my case. I´m sure there are´people who have been helped by this. I am convinced this medication has helped many many people and would never judge anyone who is taking it, we are all different. I just feel weird taking this. It is surprising how well it deals with with my withdrawal symptoms and cravings even when I was taking 16 mg a day instead of the 16mg the doctor prescribed daily.
Tomorrow I see the doctor at 1pm. I definately made a list of everything that I have been thinking.
I would love to be able to put some serious effort into the recovery program.. I just feel a bit like a hypocrite being on this medication, which has helped me but at the same time the psychological and physical ailments I have suffered since last wednesday seem to be on their way to outweighing the benefits..
WHo knows, I am still determined to get well, and tomorrow will have a talk with the doctor and get his opinion. He is a long time family friend so I´m sure he´ll take care of me... Take care all
Chris

08-18-2009, 10:07 PM	#4 (permalink)
cjsg Member Join Date: Jul 2009 Location: STROUD, OK Posts: 158	Hello Yes, last night i had serious sleep issues. I seem to fall asleep on this Sub and wake up with the perception that I have slept for 3 or 4 hours, only to find out its only been an hour and a half. I thought the same thing about not driving. I have only driven a few times around town since that day but, I think I won´t even risk that until I stabilize or stop taking this. I have only taken this for a week and last night I was thinking that I might look for a state run detox, or a cheap medical detox. I, just like you with your clients etc, have serious financial hardships at the moment. I ahven´t had to go thru these hardtimes in a long time. I´m not going to go under but at this point, a 700 dollar detox would be break me. I just feel confused... should I hold out and do the 2 month suboxone program my doctor planned or hit the 7 day detox so I can start IOP. Those are my choices. I really really feel the need to be in meetings and an IOP, but when i go to the meetings I feel so strange being on this. I have been going to meetings, reading and praying and it seems I can´t get past a certain point because I feel as if working on sobriety while I am taking this is somewhat of a lie..... in my case anyway. I would not judge anyone who decided to take this or anything. My comments regard my opinion in my case. I´m sure there are´people who have been helped by this. I am convinced this medication has helped many many people and would never judge anyone who is taking it, we are all different. I just feel weird taking this. It is surprising how well it deals with with my withdrawal symptoms and cravings even when I was taking 16 mg a day instead of the 16mg the doctor prescribed daily. Tomorrow I see the doctor at 1pm. I definately made a list of everything that I have been thinking. I would love to be able to put some serious effort into the recovery program.. I just feel a bit like a hypocrite being on this medication, which has helped me but at the same time the psychological and physical ailments I have suffered since last wednesday seem to be on their way to outweighing the benefits.. WHo knows, I am still determined to get well, and tomorrow will have a talk with the doctor and get his opinion. He is a long time family friend so I´m sure he´ll take care of me... Take care all Chris __________________ I´m Not a Complete Idiot............ I´m missing a few parts still