[cjsg]

This deep strange mental stuff you mention really jumped out at me because I have been on this stuff for a 5 days and have had nothing but a rough time. Starting late on day two I felt like instant psychiatric ward patient. I have a few episodes daily during which I completely stress and or freak out and havea little psycho anxiety attack or something. One day I was hell bent that I was going to die. The next day I was driving and suddenly thought that i was going to wreck because I felt really floaty and disconnected and felt that I was floating someone above by body....I even have a mental snapshot of how I looked in the jeep from my supposed position above the drivers seat looking down on myself. Even as I write this i feel mentally challenged and very frustrated because my mental deftness has been screwed up so much that I can hardly process or vocalise a single thought. It´s unnerving, all of these psychological or mental symptoms I have noticed. But then I tell myself.. oh your just an addict and not very objective... how can you truly know what is happening for sure. I am not sure what to think about this drug as yet. I have experienced almost constant nausea and headaches. My hands and feet feel somewhat swollen, and I have broken out in little bumps along my hairline on the forehead, and all over my face and neck as well. To add to the craziness My heart has skipped a beat on on 4 different occasions. Of course I could be imagining all this and I am trying a great deal not to put to much drama in this thing, as I am prone to do sometimes. Even so, my experience these last days has thrown up some red flags for me....... OR maybe I should shut my mouth, but I really do hate the slightly szchizophrenic , floating, disconnected sensation I have felt throughout this first week.
Maybe I´m overreacting... and imagining things, perhaps not......do you see the dilemma?
I´m glad your doing well. I know it has had to be hellish beyond belief.
Good Luck and Good Job
Chris