[ranae1221]

Hi Mamabin,

I hope going outside and getting some sun helped a bit, or at least put a smile on your face for a few seconds.

Astrogirl had a good suggestion about looking into any programs the makers of Seroquel may have. You could also try asking your doc, they often have samples available. I also take Seroquel, and my doc has given my samples to help me during tough times in the past.

That's good to hear that you have been in touch with your employer about some of the difficulties you have had and it appears they were willing to work with you to move you to a less stressful position. If something is said about you having missed work again, I would remind them that they still haven't moved you into the new position. Hopefully they will do this soon.

Worst case seniro, you can always use the Family Medical Leave Act, if you need time off work to recover. This is what I had to do, when I was at the worst of my depression. I was able to take 3 months off to concentrate on getting better and the company has to guarente there will be a job for you when you return. That might be worth looking into if you truly need time off to recover.

Is it possible to detox from Seroquel? Yes, but your doc would be the best person to help with that. If you are still having severe depressive feelings (enough to keep you from being able to work) after being on medication for several week, it could be the medication you are on isn't the right meds and/or right dose. The best thing would likely be to see your doc ASAP. This way, you can also show your work that you are actively trying to get better as well. Your doc can help you decide if the medication you are on is the right medication and dosage or if something else should be tried.

It is so very frustrating, playing that waiting game of waiting and hoping "this" medication will be the one that finally works, that finally makes you feel slightly human again.

As for your mother-in-law and others who "just don't get it", they don't. Most people don't understand why it can be so difficult to just get out of bed some days. To them, it's the mind set "you just do it". They don't understand how sometimes, it can take all your energy and strength to just keep breathing, keep living from one moment to the next. And when just taking your next breath is so overwhelming, how can you even begin to possibly imagine doing anything else?

For people like that- I feel they are lucky. They will never have to know how painful it can be to be 'us'. To feel the pain of living.

Good luck on the job front, and I hope tomorrow is a better day for you