Soberkeith, hey, hard to give that stuff up, I did 35 years going at every form of self destruction I could find. I now have 8 clean and sober, I was blessed to find what "they all had and I wanted it too"!! The first step to me, I admitted I was powerless my life is unmanagable. One sentence, one thought. As I posted elsewhere, my life is unmanagable even clean and sober. When i even THINK i can manage, there it is, unmangability... I came to believe a power greater than myself could restore me to sanity eventually. I work the 1st every day, I have to. In the beginning, and at times today, i find it hard to bend a knee and demonstrate humility, I was you, I am you, I have just found that "higher Power", not the one in the bag, are you ready?? Hope so,, if you want it, I suggest bending that knee, asking and then find an NA meeting and start there, rmember, hinesty, openmindedness, and that willingness we love, if we are not willing, we will die..Hope this helps some,, keep coming back!!! It may be crazy, but I need these programs to live, simply live, so I had these steps that saved my life tattooed on my back, I hope another hopeless soul that is as I was sees them and takes that step to get help!!!
Grateful Bill