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Making the list is pretty simple, summoning up the willingness to do it, now that's a different story. I don't have the power to do that, hence the need for God.
Most overlooked and minimized word in the steps is ALL, as in willing to make ammends to them ALL. I know a lot of folks who have made most of their ammends, but are stalling with the last few, I have done this myself. There are always folks more than willing to offer an easier softer way to ammends, they say things like, you'll never finish ammends, or wait until you bump into the person, that will be GOd's will, I don't agree. I have an accountability group where we are free to ask each other where are you with ammends, prayer, meditation, sponsoring etc..this has sharpened me, and used my ego in a productive manner. A friend gave me a prayer to work with.
Father, do these unfinished ammends have anything to do with me drinking again?"
I sat with this, and moved my feet, Today I am current, the freedom this has given me can't be described, only experienced.
My experience with ammends is they should be done after consulting a sponsor at all times, the sponsor should have experience, and not offer opinions based on intellect. it is very easy to go off and cause more harm in attempting ammends if we have not done thorough step work up to this point.
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