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Skeeter2 · 08-12-2009, 09:57 PM

I found SR surfing the web looking for some type of help with this drinking thing. I didn't do it every night. But the way I drank felt wrong -- often alone, usually about 3 glasses of wine to get to a certain buzz level (can't handle much more than that), something I thought about mid-day and looked forward to upon arriving home, seemed to be more and more a part of my life.

I remember visiting a much older friend years ago. He was living alone and he had a box of wine on his counter. My mind went: "Ding!" Up until then it had never occured to me to buy a box of wine -- a whole, huge box. It just seemed so full of potential buzzes! That friend, btw, got a DUI shortly after. His life fell apart and last time I saw him he was in terrible shape.

I could have continued drinking in my life -- sleeping like crap, feeling fuzzy in the morning -- for a long time. And along the way I would be worrying -- do I have a problem? Naw, well maybe ...? I'm sure my consumption would increase in volume and frequency.

Then, I have a few friends with major health issues -- cancers, addictions (not like me -- lol!), heart disease. I'm listening to my friend with the bad heart saying he can't give up cheese. I'm thinking, "It's killing you!" And that got me thinking that alcohol wasn't doing ME any favors, yet I couldn't give it up. How was I any different from my friends, who, I thought, just weren't trying hard enough?

I recently heard a statistic that said only 20% of people actually change their behaviors when they need to ... I decided to try to be part of the 20%. I guess everyone on this site is part of that 20% -- high five!

I feel very fortunate for the life I have. It's not worth putting all that in jeopardy. I appreciate the support from this site. Thanks!

08-12-2009, 09:57 PM	#1 (permalink)
Skeeter2 Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Posts: 82	Sick of worrying about it ... I found SR surfing the web looking for some type of help with this drinking thing. I didn't do it every night. But the way I drank felt wrong -- often alone, usually about 3 glasses of wine to get to a certain buzz level (can't handle much more than that), something I thought about mid-day and looked forward to upon arriving home, seemed to be more and more a part of my life. I remember visiting a much older friend years ago. He was living alone and he had a box of wine on his counter. My mind went: "Ding!" Up until then it had never occured to me to buy a box of wine -- a whole, huge box. It just seemed so full of potential buzzes! That friend, btw, got a DUI shortly after. His life fell apart and last time I saw him he was in terrible shape. I could have continued drinking in my life -- sleeping like crap, feeling fuzzy in the morning -- for a long time. And along the way I would be worrying -- do I have a problem? Naw, well maybe ...? I'm sure my consumption would increase in volume and frequency. Then, I have a few friends with major health issues -- cancers, addictions (not like me -- lol!), heart disease. I'm listening to my friend with the bad heart saying he can't give up cheese. I'm thinking, "It's killing you!" And that got me thinking that alcohol wasn't doing ME any favors, yet I couldn't give it up. How was I any different from my friends, who, I thought, just weren't trying hard enough? I recently heard a statistic that said only 20% of people actually change their behaviors when they need to ... I decided to try to be part of the 20%. I guess everyone on this site is part of that 20% -- high five! I feel very fortunate for the life I have. It's not worth putting all that in jeopardy. I appreciate the support from this site. Thanks!