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herennow · 08-12-2009, 12:28 PM

How I found SR - well its a good ole' fashon "read the BB" kind of story. Basically, I was living my life of sobriety and cruising along thinking there were no more scary demons in the closet. No more secrets. UNTIL one day I got really pissy with husband and my pissy'ness didn't go away after a good talk with myself. It lagged on and on and continued to confuse me (and him I'm sure). We had had an argument over something petty (curtains I think - if you can believe it) and I would not let go of this "need to be right" feeling. I had been reading the literature, cleaning my house and I had changed playgrounds years before so this one stumped me. I nudged my higher power one morning (my daily reading time) and asked what the heck was going on with me and well, it seems I hadn't been watching close enough to my top priorities because I had allowed myself to get lonely - REALLY LONELY. This ofcourse triggered what I tend to think of as a dry drunk (PAW) and it didn't take long for my selfish self to rear its ugly head. My God, recovery, family and career had taken a back seat to ME ME ME ME ME. I then took ANOTHER inventory (one of a million now I'm sure) and identified that I need more support than what I had. For me, if recovery is my coffee and my night cap things tend to run smoothly - but I want BETTER than smooth - I want MORE of course so I saw the need to fill a gap within my day - and SR is filling that gap for me me me me me.

08-12-2009, 12:28 PM	#3 (permalink)
herennow Member Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: On the Road Less Travelled Posts: 57	The curtains are not sheer enough! How I found SR - well its a good ole' fashon "read the BB" kind of story. Basically, I was living my life of sobriety and cruising along thinking there were no more scary demons in the closet. No more secrets. UNTIL one day I got really pissy with husband and my pissy'ness didn't go away after a good talk with myself. It lagged on and on and continued to confuse me (and him I'm sure). We had had an argument over something petty (curtains I think - if you can believe it) and I would not let go of this "need to be right" feeling. I had been reading the literature, cleaning my house and I had changed playgrounds years before so this one stumped me. I nudged my higher power one morning (my daily reading time) and asked what the heck was going on with me and well, it seems I hadn't been watching close enough to my top priorities because I had allowed myself to get lonely - REALLY LONELY. This ofcourse triggered what I tend to think of as a dry drunk (PAW) and it didn't take long for my selfish self to rear its ugly head. My God, recovery, family and career had taken a back seat to ME ME ME ME ME. I then took ANOTHER inventory (one of a million now I'm sure) and identified that I need more support than what I had. For me, if recovery is my coffee and my night cap things tend to run smoothly - but I want BETTER than smooth - I want MORE of course so I saw the need to fill a gap within my day - and SR is filling that gap for me me me me me.