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Originally Posted by Morning Glory We do the things we have to do to survive and then forget why we are doing it. We continue to use the survival methods when we don't need them anymore. |
It's so weird having this knowledge. It's like believing the earth is flat and then finding out it's really round - that's how huge this has been for me. This whole relationship obsession has been the constant underlying theme of my life. Whatever I was trying to hide from or escape in life at age 4, I used relationships, fictional or otherwise, to do it. I'm pretty certain it had to do with my dad, who was extemely critical and would punish me for any little thing. In fact, my first memories of my dad punishing me begin at age 4. In nursery school the teachers would send home conduct notes every day. On the days we had oatmeal for breakfast, I would always get a bad mark b/c I hate oatmeal and I would never eat it. My dad was the one to pick me up from school and I would get in sooo much trouble on the oatmeal days. That's the
other memory I have from that age.
OMG! Ding ding ding!!!! A connection! It's all finally starting to make sense!
Well, I do know this survival method hasn't worked for me in eons, if it ever worked. And I did not mean to hijack this thread!
Ahhhh, see what happens when you go poking around the dark corners of your life?
