[Impurrfect]

Wow, we're already at part 7!! I remember when we were trying so hard to get to 500 posts just so we could be in this forum

((Kwhims)) - I, too, feel that when someone has given me something, I should give them something back in return. It's a hard habit to break, but what I have learned from a very dear friend and my stepmom is that some of the neatest gifts I've been given don't even cost $2!! They've picked them up at yard sales or things like that, but it was something they knew I would like because they know me so well and they were right..I absolutely loved them!! I have begun to try to do the same...if I can't get past the feeling that I need to return the gift, since I am very low in funds, myself, I look for something that means something to them but doesn't hurt me financially - you'll be amazed at what you can fine. I'm still trying to get to the point where I can just gracefully accept a gift, though.

My morning has not started off well, but I am not letting it get to me....yet. Dad had told Brit he was getting her grades from school. She hasn't even done any school work since Dec. and before that, her grades averaged 70. He is furious, as he's been paying the $40/month for nothing, while she's been running around having fun. According to stepmom, she HAS been memorizing the menu for that job and the guy told her he didn't care if it took her more than a week, as long as she had it memorized to make a 90 on the test, the job was hers.

I told dad I had really been working on getting Brit to get back in school...that I told her the day she was born, I held her and prayed "God, please help me get this baby through to her high school graduation" and that her mama had often said "MY baby's gonna graduate high school" and she had asked if she needed help, would I help her and I said "absolutely!!!".

But dad's being a jerk, so I don't know how it will go. He says if she doesn't go to school, she can't live here. I left the room, then heard my stepmom screaming "go ahead and hit me" and came running back in. HE says he was pointing his finger in her face, she says he was shaking his fist in her face. Having had the fist shook in my face, I'm sure she knows the difference. Then he called her a "stupid b***c" and I said "see..there you go with the name calling again" and I went back to my room.

I have ear plugs. However, I will not sit here and not do anything if my dad goes after my stepmom or Brit. Yes, I will call the cops on him if I can't break it up before it gets started.

I JUST talked to him in the last 2 days about him and the name calling stuff and told him he is pushing me away when he does this. I know old habits are hard to break, but he's turning into a man I love, but I really don't like nor do I want to be around. I pray every day he gets a trip and goes out of town. I told ((Anvil)) I lived at "dysfunction junction"

Sorry, here I go again with more drama. Amazingly, I'm okay. I'm more determined than ever that I'm going to be okay. I'm not happy with Brit's decisions, I actually agree with some of what dad says, just not the way he says it.

I'm okay, 'cause I'm tough!

Hugs and prayers!

Amy