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Originally Posted by Cubile75  I am posting here in the 12 step forum. I need some experience, strength and hope.
I am on my 5th step, though not moving forward. I enjoy the fellowship of AA. Without it, my head would explode.
Mark |
Hi Mark,
Real or imagined, resentments are not something I can live with, if I choose sobriety.
My ego always wants to take me back to resentments, back to hating something I have moved beyond, something I have forgiven, something I gave to God.
My ego would love it if I returned to drinking, but only for a short while, until I actually picked up, then my ego would turn its ugly head around and begin the self beatings, the telling me what a looser I am, and all that stuff...
My ego is like a child throwing a temper tantrum, angry, conniving, and manipulative.
So what if you went to treatment for whatever reason, so what...
So what if someone did not give you choice...neither does alcoholism...
So what...whatever your ego is attempting to convince you of today to be angry about yesterday.
So what if your ego is afraid to move forward in the steps, move anyway!
When you ego starts up again, simply tell it that you love it, and know that it is afraid, and that it is alright, you can handle this, with or without ego!
Have a fabulous day!
~Cheryl
Do you want to be right, or do you want to be happy?