At home surfing the net. Typed in the search bar 'photos of bloated alcoholics' & 'bloating from wine'. I wanted to see if maybe I have the bloated look! I normally only drink a couple of bottles of wine a month. About 3 glasses in one night, then dump the rest of contents. Then in 2 weeks, repeat the process. Lots of stressful circumstances in my life. People stealing from me, need dental insurance, in debt, depression, anxiety, gaining weight, oh that's just the beginning of my worries. So to deal with all this stress I've upped my wine nights per month. Now it's about 3 nights a week, a whole bottle each night. I feel like crap the next day, look like crap, etc. etc.
So out on the web tonite looking for bloated pics and found SR. I've been to AA meetings, then somehow go into denial I guess (in between poor attendance to meetings). I find reasons why I don't need AA ..... lots of reasons. But my life is going to hell and I want to stop drinking. I like that their only requirement for 'membership' is the desire to not drink. I know it's a great program, not perfect, because what is on this planet? Oh maybe a flower, a cat, a dog, or a child.
