thanks for the congrats - its just so overwhelming sometimes! I secretly hate that he isn't going to meetings, and isn't talking to anyone. I don't know, i guess that's selfishness on my part? I know he must be going through some things because he isn't drinking, like he barely sees his friends now cus all they do on the weekends is go to bars, and im not around a lot of nights cus i get my ass to meetings. I just feel for him, i recently did let it get to me and stopped talking to my peeps from the program, didn't go to meetings, nothing - for 6 days. I was honestly going insane. Relying on myself was horrible, and being alone was even worse.
But then i look @ it, well maybe he's not 'as sick' as me? Is that possible? I'm assuming yes. I feel like he has more anger (keep inside issues) where as me, all i want to do is talk to ppl and ask for help, its really really tough being sober like this, watching him, i know he's struggling but won't admit it.
Once again, i am grateful that he isn't drinking even though he is not going to meetings, working the program, etc.
BLAH, my head is going crazy today
