Least,
You say you have pleasure in laying with your dogs.
That's some pleasure.
What else are you grateful for?
It doesn't have to be the big things, ya know.
We often overlook the little things.
You have a bed to sleep in.
You have a roof over your head.
You have a counselor to speak with.
And SR where you can share your sorrows and your joys.
It's important,
especially when we are feeling very down and depressed,
to remember all that we *do* have.
And to be thankful
for the gifts that G*D gives us.
If the G*D that you grew up with
is no longer working for you,
Find the G*D that does.
That G*D will give you serenity.
I took a 17 year journey to find the G*D of my understanding,
The one that works for me.
It's there for you too.
Use the gifts of your eyes and your brain
to find yours.
And you will find happiness and peace.
Not forevermore; life does still happen.
But, it is real.
And it is deep.
And you will always be able to tap into it
When you most need it.
A gratitude journal is a good place to begin.
Adult classes or readings in philosophy and religious teachings of all kinds help.
Find your passions.
They are there.
Only you can tap into them.
It's what worked for me.
Shalom!