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Funny thing is that I saw this thread, but felt depressed and didn't feel like responding. I then took a nap cause i wasn't feeling so good. So am I depressed?
I mean, I feel very low in energy, I wanna sleep all the time, and I'm def. neglecting the body. I used to excercxise everday, sometimes twice a day, now I haven't excercised in over 2 weeks. My acne is being addressed (I go to the dermatologist), but many nights, I just don't care enough to wash my face and put on my medication. I also don't brush my teeth more than once a day. Feels too much like a chore.
The weird thing is that I feel okay. Emotionally, Im smiling alot, laughing alot. It's just the physical part that's lacking like no energy, no movement towards good hygeine, some pains headaches and back pains, no desire to workout/excercise.
But I feel a change coming through. Im hoping that tomorrow I can wake up no later than 8am, and do some excercise. Do a nice run, then some calisthetics when I get home.
I want to make sure I get my face washed twice a day, maybe three times a day.
It time for me to become more active because truthfully im not all that depressed. I just get low, blue moments during the day, it's nothing too strong.
Im actually very excited about this, because I feel like these are all feasible, rather small changes i can make that will make me look better, and so feel better.
I just hoped I don't psych myself out like "oh no, I have to make so many changes tomorrow". "Excercising takes too much time and is boring." I know that if I wake up too late, I'll feel like I can't excercise, and that my transformation will be incomplete even if I do take care of the hygenic stuff.
Basically, I agree that it's easier to take care of things as you feel better. Which is why depression can be a viscious cycle. I'ts like (1) You feel bad for no reason, and stop caring about stuff (2) You're not treating yourself well, because you don't care (3) now you're feeling bad because you're not treating yourself well, (4) and you stop caring because you feel so bad. It repeats.
It's like in the beginning, you didn't know why you were so apathetic and sad. But now you're giving yourself a reason to be that way. You have to force yourself to break the cycle, and it can be very hard.
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