Hi haunted......welcome to SR.....maybe you can start your own thread and introduce yourself? What is your story?
There are a lot of folks here who have been through the exact same thing you are currently experiencing.....there are a lot of folks here who have felt and still feel exactly how you feel right now. Keep reading and posting!
Lost......that is a very nice letter that encapsulates all that those of us who love an addict feel. Letting go is hard, but if we don't, the ride is sooooo much darker.
Hugs and Prayers, HG